Saturday, November 13, 2010

Written Punishments, Cock Control and an Excellent Punishment & Infractions Report

The report below, published with permission, is a illustration of why certain boys ask me for written punishments. It is from a new punishee, not WP2, whose better reports I have been publishing in my InHerService blog.

The first boy who approached me for written punishments (neither of these two) asked to be made to write lines and submit fines for his disrespectful acts toward women, such as cutting them off in traffic, or leering at certain parts of their anatomy. (I now call these punishments "lines and fines" because that is exactly what they are.) He wanted me to role play as a judge, representing the Court of Women, and punishing him for his misdeeds toward the better half of the human race.

Around this time I asked my boy, ed cantor, if he could see me, a loving Domme, in the role of a firm and strict "Lady Disciplinarian", the title given to me by this boy, to which he responded with a lovely piece, called simply "Disciplinarian" which some of you may remember. It reminded me, with the warmest glow, that a firm hand sometimes shows more love than a permissive smile.

As I started giving this first boy his punishments, I found that the Superior Female/"Goddess archetype" in me was really enjoying handing them down. I asked him more about the culture of written punishments, and was directed to a Yahoo Group dedicated to them. I joined and am really enjoying being a part of the group. I have learned a lot there about new and different types of written punishments: essays, copying, etc., as well as ways to make writing lines more difficult.

I also now have a WP Assistant there, johnj, who helps me with researching new assignments and potential punishees/trainees. He is great at brainstorming, gives good feedback, and if I ask him to do something, I know that it WILL be done, and promptly so.

The group itself has more of a classroom/school days focus, with weekly homework essays, students being punished for acting up in class, etc. Like the boys that I am training off-list, I do generally prefer a more adult approach. I have found that the boys who come to me off-list usually do so for one of two reasons:

- They want to be punished for activities that are not suitable to be discussed on a PG-rated list. These included excessive masturbation, leering at women, porn addiction, causing women to go out of their way to bend over so they can get a better view, fingering a female friend's unworn panties, etc.

I'm starting to combine punishments for boys like these with cock control, requiring chastity while they do their punishment work, and only potentially allowing a release, as I dictate, once their work has been completed and accepted by me. Obviously, this is a strong motivator to finish their task. At the same time, it teaches them to better control their urges and to focus on respecting women rather than on using them for their own pleasure. It is my firm belief that a man's penis is for the pleasure of the woman (or women) in his life, and that he will gain the most pleasure from it when he learns to focus on her needs and desires instead of on his own selfishness.

- They want to be punished in ways that they can't be on the list.

The biggie is the desire to send me lines so that I can tear them up. After many years of refusing offers from boys who wanted to buy me a webcam (I didn't want one because I didn't want to cam), I finally gave in for one of these punishees. It has always been my feeling that going on cam in an intimate way is a sexual service and is often very slutty. (I also wish to protect my identity for work reasons.) Therefore, as a Domme, it has always been my policy that I do not cam, but I do enjoy watching boys cam for me as long as they are respectful, focused on me, follow orders, etc. In this case, I am videotaping only my hands as I tear up the lines or essay. Therefore, it is not live, and only shows exactly what I want it to show. The "careful exhibitionist" in me does enjoy that part, and I'm contemplating doing future videos of just my feet, etc. For now, I have a couple boys who are willing to airmail me their work from the UK just so that I can tear it up!

I can also have boys wear certain items (panties, male thong, cock ring, etc.) or do their writing in certain locations, in order to remind them of the reason for their punishment and/or make them feel more submissive while doing it. These additions are not allowed for on-list assignments, however they can add significantly to the experience. Reading some of WP2's reports shows just how much:
- http://www.inherservice.com/2010/09/written-punishments-in-library.html
- http://www.inherservice.com/2010/10/caught-writing-lines-while-wearing.html


I must admit that I am finding the written punishments combined with cock control to be a huge turn-on and they are often my favorite. I'm enjoying having trainees write for other reasons as well, such as improving their health, or recreating a memory or fantasy from another time, and I'm even starting to combine off and onlist training for some boys whose training is less sexual in nature. This is because we enjoy the exhibitionism of having them report the punishments on the list and/or because it adds an element to the possible punishment (being under the list rules adds the possibility of expulsion from the list) for list members whose tasks are not completed in a timely manner. I may write more about that later.

For now, I will leave you to read the report:

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Dear Mistress Magick,

Thank you for accepting my work, it makes me happy to know that the work was up to your high standards. As you noted, the scanner itself has seen better days, and does produce some spots.

I will remember your suggestion of a thank you paragraph if I'm required to write lines to you once again.

Thank you for granting me an orgasm, it was enjoyable to give myself release on your command. You requested that I think of and report on other offences:

In terms of other porn-viewing occasions, there are so many that it's difficult to know where to begin. I have been interested in porn and kinky porn for many years, and have spent quite a lot of time viewing it. I have nothing against the production or viewing of porn per se, though I find that the way porn is produced and consumed is quite symptomatic of the subjugation and objectification of women in society. However, I often have found myself spending many hours viewing porn, in search of the one picture that really does it for me and takes me over the edge. These are hours that I'm spending on my own pleasure, rather than doing more productive things for myself or for my Goddess. The submissive in me finds the waste of hours of time looking at porn to be unacceptable.

However, one common situation does stand out to me. My partner is an early riser and often goes to bed before me. I am a late bird, so I would often not go to bed with her, but rather stay up a bit later. Often I would feel horny and end up staying up very late, viewing porn and masturbating. And I would usually feel guilty afterwards...I should have been pleasuring and hugging my Goddess, but instead I've wasted my time objectifying other women and focusing my energy on them.

The other thing that I've felt deserves to be punished is my sometimes leering behaviour on the street. I smoke (yes, I do want to quit at some point, but not right at the moment. And when I do I think I want to keep quitting and my kink separate.) so when I'm at work I go outside the building and smoke. When I do so, I often find myself pacing around and turning my head in order to have a look at the buttocks of women who walk by on the sidewalk. Now, I think it's somewhat natural to look at an attractive person who walks by. But it's another thing to do so in an obvious way...and I think I cross that line sometimes. Especially when I'm feeling horny, I will leer at the bottoms of the women who walk by. I would like to change this behaviour, and I have to some extent, but there is also something quite natural and automatic about eyeing attractive people who walk by. I feel that some discipline might do me some good, though I also struggle to find a good strategy to avoid leering. Do I stare at the ground instead? There is just something so natural about watching the women walk by, I struggle to avoid it.


As to my feelings being punished, I found the experience quite powerful. I had to muster the courage to ask for a punishment on the list. Requesting punishment is a weird thing. I didn't think I'd really enjoy writing all those lines, so requesting something that will be less than pleasant is a weird thing. But I also kink on it. One thing is kinking on the punishment and having a sort of play 'offence' to justify it. But if it is something that I really feel bad about and want to change, then it somehow goes beyond just play somehow. Because a lot of kinky play is activity that I really like...but writing lines?? But I asked...and waited for a response.

I was quite excited when I got your response. I have found that anticipation can be very stimulating, guessing at what your punishment might be. I thought of doing the lines not because I wanted to, but because I wanted to improve myself and also obey a dominant woman. So that was a happy, nervous sort of anticipation. When I got the assignment, I was still quite turned on by the thought of the punishment. I savoured the opportunity to carry out your command.

Once I began writing the lines, I found it tedious, boring and painful. It was not really fun to spend all that time writing lines and having my hand hurt, even if I am a bit of a masochist. However, I knew why I was writing them and knew that I just needed to go ahead and finish. Wearing a thong while writing them also reminded me of my submission and my desire to be a good submissive slut. In my mind I thought that this punishment might help me to avoid the offensive behaviour, which made me hopeful at the same time. And I have to say I am proud that I now haven't viewed porn since the beginning of last weekend. Not really much time to be proud of, but it is nonetheless satisfying.

All that time, I didn't masturbate. With my lover not around and knowing I didn't have permission to orgasm, I found it was actually easier than I thought to abstain from playing with myself. When she is around, I think I find her presence arousing (as it should be!) and so chastity periods can be quite teasing and frustrating. But this one has been a bit easier, perhaps because I've started to exercise on a more regular basis in the last couple of weeks. I find that does alter the patterns of my libido.

When I finally finished all the lines, I was quite happy and pleased with myself. I scanned them and converted the files (I'm a techie IT person, but it still took me a couple hours to scan and convert!) and sent them off to you. Then began another period of anticipation. But we subs must learn that sometimes we have to wait. Would you accept them? Would I get an additional punishment? Would I be granted an orgasm. Submitting to your decisions in those matters is both slightly nerve-racking and also quite erotic.

I waited in anticipation of your email and instructions. When I received your email, I was joyed to hear that I could have an orgasm. This morning, I did my 15 minutes exercise, then kneeled in the bedroom and masturbated to thoughts of you, of submitting to your punishment, of my Lovely Goddess, and of how it is to have someone else controlling my cock. I came in the shot glass. Then I tipped it back and drank it. It went down pretty quick. I really dislike the taste of my cum, I just don't enjoy it. It was quite difficult to do, but I know what my orders were and carried them out. Drinking my own seed feels quite powerful, as it really is something that I would *not* follow through with if left to my own devices. But I did it, and it feels like a very submissive act. I also feel there is a sort of justice to it, since I am 'cleaning up my own mess' instead of leaving stains on bed sheets, underwear, etc. So it's powerful, but I'd definitely say I'm not used to the taste itself...I don't think I'll ever get used to that. Now the taste of a woman, on the other hand... :)

And so that's where I am now. It's after midnight, but I still feel like I can feel a bit of the salty protein-rich taste on my tongue. And another day has past in which I have not viewed porn. And now I wonder when my next orgasm might be...since I have agreed that that is not in my control right now.

Thank you for taking the time to punish me, and for controlling my cock. It is a sometimes contradictory and strange journey, but I find it quite captivating and exciting. I guess that's sexual submission.

Thank you for reading these rambling notes I have written.

Yours truly,
SeekingP

3 comments:

  1. Thank you for taking the time and effort to give me the discipline and training that I deserve. I have been a naughty boy and know I deserve to be punished. I do not enjoy writing lines but I know they help me to break bad habits and focus on what is important to me. The focus of my sexuality should be on my Goddess's pleasure and happiness. Viewing porn and leering at other women are actions that distract me from her pleasure. I also believe that the objectification of women supports and encourages sexist behavior and attitudes that I consider to be unjust. Your training has made me reflect on my behavior and vow to be a better submissive servant. I find joy and pleasure and liberation in expressing my submissive sexuality. You are helping me to express this in a healthy way. For this I am grateful.
    -SeekingP

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  2. Dear Mistress Magick,
    I am keenly interested in submitting to a regimen of punishment line writing. If you are interested in assigning me line, please let me know!
    Sincerely and submissively,
    eric
    Pillorysub@gmail.com

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  3. Dear Mistress Magick,
    I am keenly interested in submitting to a regimen of punishment line writing. If you are interested in assigning me line, please let me know!
    Sincerely and submissively,
    eric
    Pillorysub@gmail.com

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