Erotica, Romance...

You might remember that this time last year, I had my Written Punishments assistant, johnj, write out copies of Madonna's "Hanky Panky" - after all every boy needs a little "spanky" for his birthday! This year, I've decided to start with "Erotica". In preparing his assignment, I found this rather yummy video.

Enjoy!!!
(You might have to convince Youtube that you're an adult to view it.)

Slaving Away For Your Mistress aka Working, Not Wanking

So many boys say that they would love to tribute to me but that they simply can't afford it. One of my personal boys has offered a solution:

Amazon owns a website, Amazon Mechanical Turk, where you can do mini-jobs for mini-rewards.

I've been giving it a bit of a test drive, and I can tell you that you'll never pay your rent while working on this site. However, you could make $100/month in your spare time by answering surveys, test driving websites, summarizing/rewriting articles, etc. Some of the best paid jobs are transcription and translation tasks, followed by usability testing, but there are plenty of surveys and studies that anyone can do. Some of these remind me of the studies we were required to assist with when taking Psychology 101, and, in fact, many of the ones I've tested were posted by major universities, as well as by politicians, marketers, web designers, etc. There are currently series of surveys asking for input on education and experience from people in different careers including IT professionals, photographers, massage therapists, lawyers, etc.

Each task is called a HIT (Human Intelligence Task).  You can opt-out from any task that you accept without penalty. However, if you do a bad job on a HIT, it can be rejected, and your percentage of rejected HITs affects your access to new ones. You may also need to take qualification tests for some of the better paying HITs. However, even $1 here and 75 cents there adds up, and some of these are a lot of fun, or worth the experience. I don't want, or expect, anyone to do free work, but if you like the idea of slaving away for your Mistress, let me know.

Since these are often simple tasks that you can do in your spare time, I'm also thinking that this could be a great update to my Writing, not Wanking program for those of you who aren't able to write lines, and would which could also be of benefit to me as well. Maybe I'll even eventually allow you cum based on how much money you earn!

For those in the US, I think you can just send the earnings from your Amazon Payments account to my account, but I'm not sure if that is possible for those in the UK and other countries. I'd love several boys, both in the US and internationally, to help me test those aspects. Email me at ForMistressMagick *at* yahoo *dot* com if you're up for giving it a try.

Shakespearean D/s

I've always thought that Shakespeare's "Sonnet 57" would be perfect for just the right boy to copy for me as a written "punishment". Well, I've definitely found the right boy! :-) And he has adapted it ever so slightly for me before writing it out. Enjoy!

Sonnet 57

Being Your slave, what should i do but tend

Upon the hours and times of Your desire?

i have no precious time at all to spend,

Nor services to do, till You require.

Nor dare i chide the world-without-end hour

Whilst i, my Mistress, watch the clock for You,

Nor think the bitterness of absence sour

When you have bid Your servant once adieu;

Nor dare i question with my jealous thought

Where You may be, or Your affairs suppose,

But, like a sad slave, stay and think of nought

Save, where You are how happy You make those.

So true a fool is love that in Your will,

Though you do any thing, he thinks no ill.

- adapted from William Shakespeare

Locking, Leather Chastity Shorts

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"Mistress Moans"

My silly, wonderful #1 boy, johnj rewrote the J. J. Cale song "Mona" for me. While certain lines might make even me blush, I had to share it:

Mistress Moans

 ~ Adapted by johnjWP from "Mona" by J. J. Cale

Mistress, She cums on a Saturday

She gives me plenty of lines

She cums in my bed, gets in my head

Makes me feel alright

Makes me feel alright

Mistress, She cums on a Sunday

She cums on into the night

Mistress, She cums on my fingers

To keep my spirits high

To keep my spirits high

Mistress, She brings me no money

She brings me no food

All She brings is Her sweet, sweet love

Makes my afternoon

Makes my afternoon

When daylight falls on my window

Another night's come and gone

I always know 'cause I'm feeling so low

Mistress, you know She has gone

Mistress, you know She has gone

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And, yes, of course he wrote it for me - 10x!



School Days: My September Assignment is Ready

School days, school days

Dear old golden rule days

Readin' and 'ritin' and 'rithmetic

Taught to the tune of the hickory stick

…

Let's take a trip on memory's ship

Back to the bygone days

Sail to the old village school house

Anchor outside the school door

Look in and see

There's you and there's me

A couple of kids once more.

“School Days, School Days” Lyrics by Will D. Cobb, 1907

http://kids.niehs.nih.gov/lyrics/schooldays.htm

Yes, it's that time of year again, and to celebrate you'll be dressing up as a school girl or boy, with the option of writing lines while dressed. ;-)

Email:   ForMistressMagick *at* yahoo.com

And request the September Assignment to join us in class.

(Consenting adults only, of course.)

Writing For Me - Even When He's Not Writing For Me ;-)

My #1 boy & WP Assistant, johnj, is doing a written punishment for another Domme right now. The short version is that he had fun taking part in some online roleplay where a group of subs (actually most of them are bottoms) were being "helpful" but were really being naughty (destroying things to build other things.. all imaginary, so nothing was actually damaged) and now he is getting the same punishment as the others.

This was all with my blessing of course, but this time it's been feeling a bit weird with him writing for someone else. johnj is nothing if not helpful, so it was natural for him to take part (and I enjoyed watching him join in the fun)... and of course it was only fair that he receive the same "reward" as the others. However, I'm not been feeling any power exchange with it this time (every time before this I have actively arranged it in some fashion, rather than simply encouraging and allowing it), and while he's enjoying it, it's not quite the same "zing" for him either.

But today was different. Between Hurricane Irene and some extended-family issues, I was up all night last night. I slept in even later than normal for a Saturday and was late to our usual Saturday afternoon date (one of the privileges of being my best boy ;-)). I met him online, but I needed time to do a few things before I could give him my full attention. He asked if he should write another 10 double lines while he waited. I said "15!" And the zing was back! ;-)

He told me afterward that those lines were definitely written for me even though they were assigned by another Domme. Needless to say, this morning (Sunday), he will be writing an additional 100 lines "for me"! ;-)

Reflections: Shifting Focus ~

It's funny how different types of punishments wax and wane. Some months it seems like all my focus is on Edging or Panties, while others it might all be on Written Punishments. Part of it is that the more I am focused on any one area, the more it feeds other punishments in that area... both because the report posts and tweets attract new boys, and because the more I give assignments in an area, the more new naughty and interesting ideas I come with! What I do with boy A gives me ideas of what to do with boy B, and they both feed my play with sissy C, which gives me a great new idea for A, and so on.

But with my online-only boys and clients, my current focus also varies depending on *their* work, family obligations, etc. It makes sense that certain Holiday Assignments are more popular than others, but even those vary. For instance, a "ribbon assignment" usually has guaranteed popularity. Last year's 4th of July was amazing, with a couple boys queued up early and a couple more running out to buy ribbons on the 4th itself so that they could join in. It is so perfect when an assignment hits a critical mass like that! I was busy with email and tweets, turned on by all the boys in ribbons and their yummy reports, and loving every minute of it!  By contrast, almost everyone was busy this year, and I had very little participation. Sometimes I am just focused on other things and not pushing the holidays as much, but I don't think that has the case with the 4th.

A couple months ago, even my WP regulars were taking a break, but I was completely caught up in Edging Games with my Twitter boys & gurls. Whereas now, I have half a dozen boys & gurls doing Written Punishments... but since my jezi, mKo and others have been busy with work and family, Twitter has really quieted down for me.

I've got a couple new puppies lined up for my August "Dog Days of Summer" assignment and am curious to see if any of them turn out to be worth keeping around for more.
   Email: ForMistressMagick *at* yahoo *dot* com  and "beg for it" to join in! ;-)


Coming up next:
How I had a boy who was guilty of borrowing his ex-partners' panties for self-pleasuring purposes help design his own written punishment. ;-)

WP Birthday Spankings! (Updated)

I just gave the below "Written Punishment" to johnj as a Special Birthday Present (he has to write it 10x, +1 "to grow on", making 11 repetitions in total.. so far!), and I thought others might enjoy it as well.

Update: I changed the lyrics and layout to the below, with "Come over here, boy!" in my color (purple) and spank/spanky/spanking and "Oooo...my bottom hurts just thinking about it!" always in red, for his red behind! ;-) 

He's re-writing the previous 11, plus 5 more... plus another one to "grow" on! ;-)

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My Birthday Spanking

~ Adapted from Madonna's song "Hanky Panky"

[Mistress says] Come over here, boy!

Some boys, they get handy,
and others, they like to grind,
I'll settle for the palm of your hand
somewhere on my behind.
Treat me like I'm a bad boy,
even when I'm being good to you,
I don't want you to thank me,
 you can just spank me!
Mmmmmmm...

Some girls like to sweet talk,
and others, they like to tease,
Tie my hands behind my back
and, ooo, I'm in ecstasy.
Don't slobber me with kisses,
I can get that from my sisters,
Before I get too cranky,
you better...

Like hanky panky,
Nothing like a good spanky,
Don't take out your handkerchiefs,
I don't wanna cry,
I just wanna be your hanky panky guy.

Oooo...my bottom hurts just thinking about it!

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The original song... which was from the movie, Dick Tracy:



Disciplining Naughty Boys ~

I must admit: I love making boys endure the things that distract them and lead them into temptation while doing their written punishments.

I just wrote an assignment of a boy who likes to look at... leer at...  women in sexy boots. So, not only does he have to surround himself with his favorite pictures of women in boots while he writes his lines, he also has to describe what he finds sexy about them is a part of him lines. *evil laugh*

And, of course, he is NOT allowed to touch himself while enduring all this teasing & punishment!
Now, that's hawt! ;-)

Kink-Colored Glasses: Coloring & Activity Books

I have been emailing with an adult male who likes to dress up and be given written punishments to complete while role playing as a little girl.

For those of you who don't know, I used to be the "Dommie Mommy" in a family-by-choice that included a couple ABs (Adult Babies). These are consenting adults who like to dress up and role play as babies or children. For many, it isn't sexual, but is rather about feeling safe, secure and loved.

Honestly, ABs aren't usually my thing anymore. It doesn't take long for me to get tired of the "little ones" who require all your time and attention, and well... even though, with AB/DLs, you can choose whether they can do #1 or #2 or #3 (Did you know that there is a #3!), I won't even entertain the idea of diapers these days!

However, I noticed that some of the boys preferred role playing as little girls because they believed that little girls were more loved and protected and cared for... and of course, they get all the pretty stuff! And those are the ones that I enjoy playing with: coloring and reading together, cuddling, going shopping for pretty girlie stuff, playing dress up, etc. And they can even help Mommy get dinner ready, or brush Mommy's hair after she is done brushing theirs. ;-)

Anyway, as I was saying, I've been talking to an AB girl who likes to do written punishments. So what should I see while shopping at Target tonight, but a Disney Princess Word Search Activity Book! And on clearance no less! Yep, I had to buy it! :-)

I haven't looked at coloring and activity books that way in years, but it's very obvious that talking to her has put my "AB-colored glasses" on. And even though I'm not sure if I am going to be giving her punishments, she is reminding me of my old family-by-choice ... and also one very grown up "little girl" who became my sub for a while. Such sweet memories... :-)

The End of Cursive Writing?

Yet another reason why Written Punishments are needed:

Hmm... I wonder how many of you would enjoy doing some of those practice sheets for me!

Being your slave, what should I do but tend...

Someone just reminded me of this. Copying it would make a great Written Punishment for the right boy!

Sonnet 57

Being your slave, what should I do but tend

Upon the hours and times of your desire?

I have no precious time at all to spend,

Nor services to do, till you require.

Nor dare I chide the world-without-end hour

Whilst I, my sovereign, watch the clock for you,

Nor think the bitterness of absence sour

When you have bid your servant once adieu;

Nor dare I question with my jealous thought

Where you may be, or your affairs suppose,

But, like a sad slave, stay and think of nought

Save, where you are how happy you make those.

So true a fool is love that in your will,

Though you do any thing, he thinks no ill.

                                   - William Shakespeare

Need Help With Your 2011 Goals & Resolutions?

Perhaps I can help.

I have a "written punishments" trainee who writes essays and/or lines a couple times a month in order to reinforce his health goals. Assignments are G-rated and have included things like writing an essay of how he would continue to follow a healthy eating plan over the holidays and writing lines reinforcing his promise to achieve his weekly exercise goal.

The same techniques could be used to help you stay focused on meeting other goals such as: starting your own business, finding a better job, creating a better relationship with your mate, saving money, etc.

Writing lines can serve the same purpose as writing affirmations, in that they focus your subconscious on your goal, and prepare you to achieve it. They can also serve as a reminder of your goal when you stray from your desired course.

Research papers can be used to delve into the different aspects ot approaches to achieving your goal, while personal essays can be used to focus yourself on how you can meet the steps required to do so, including thinking through the specific changes that you need to make and working through the mental blocks which get in your way.

If you would be interested in a similiar personalized mentoring/coaching program with me along these lines, write to me at:
ForMistressMagick *at* Yahoo *dot* com

The lengths and types of assignments would vary based on your needs, and I would be willing to allow you to type assignments instead of writing them out by hand. The fee would generally be around $25/assignment, and I would only work with you in areas where I am familiar with what is required and felt capable of helping you focus on achieving your goals.

"Writing, Not Wanking"

I've decided that "Writing, Not Wanking" is my official slogan for my Written Punishments Chastity/Cock Control Assignments/Training! Some of you will be writing it in the near future! ;-)

Using Written Punishments & Cock Control Training To Help Couples

I decided to cross-post the below from the report in my InHerService.com blog. I would love to do more training of this sort with male submissives, and I do believe that it can be used to help enhance their relationship with the Goddess in their life, or to help prepare them to be ready to serve Her when she comes along, as well as to improve their treatment of all women.
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When we started, I knew that SeekingP only intended to train with me while his Lady was out of town for a few months. While She has been gone, we have worked on his porn addiction and the fact that he needs to focus on Her service and pleasure rather than on letting his own selfish habits take his time and attention away from her. We have also worked on his disrespectful actions toward other women, such as his tendency to stare at their assets as they walk by on the street.

I am really glad to see that my combination of written punishments and cock control have made a difference for him. While I am sad to see him go, I understand that now he needs to focus on his own Goddess. And I do have to say that she is a very lucky lady to have such an intelligent and sensual boy who knows that it is his place to please Her. The fact that he noticed that his focus was straying from Her and took steps to change that speaks well of him. I would hope that I could help other committed couples in much the same way.

I don't think a few sessions will solve every problem, and do believe that long-term reinforcement may often be required. Since SeekingP was straightforward with me, I am happy to help, if at any point, he finds himself slipping or in need of additional training, and would welcome working with him again.

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Dear Mistress Magick,

I am happy that you have accepted my lines and have granted me an orgasm.

It took me a bit of time to start on this set of lines. I had used up almost all the pages of my legal sized notepad, so I had to go to the stationary shop and get myself a new pad of paper. I also had come down with a bit of a head cold, which was making me rather slow and tired. But after I assembled the necessary stationary, I started on my lines. This set of lines seemed to go quite slowly. It seemed to take a long time to even approach the half-way mark. But the lines were doing their job of reminding me of what's important and what I shouldn't do.

Going to work in the morning after having spent part of the previous night writing my line was a good experience. I could hear and feel my line in my head, reminding me that I was *not* allowed to stare at and ogle women. My focus should be on my Goddess, not on disrespecting random women in the street.

During this time, I'd been working on completing a To-Do list of things that I want to do in preparation for my Goddess's homecoming. It is now just a short time until she will be home, and I want to do what I can to welcome her, make her feel special and comfortable. And I'm also looking forward to the sex that we will have, and I've been fantasizing about all the different ways I want to pleasure and pamper her when she gets home.

I was happy when I finally finished my lines. I waited for your response and was happy to be granted an orgasm, as at that point it had been more than a week since I'd had one. It is amazing to know that I can go for a week or more without cumming and that such a schedule can begin to feel normal to my body, compared to sometimes having multiple orgasms per day when I was in charge of my cock.

I received your email on Thursday morning, so I'd have to wait until Thursday night to give myself an orgasm. I followed your instructions, thinking about my Goddess and all the ways I wanted to pleasure and pamper her. This was easy, as her impending return already had me thinking about the things I wanted to do to welcome her back, and all the different ways I want to kiss and lick her. I edged 4 or 5 times over the course of 20 minutes, and then finally pleasured myself until I went over the edge. The orgasm felt good, then I quickly licked my seed from my hand before it went cold or my arousal subsided. I don't enjoy the taste of my cum, but there it was...I thus cleaned up my mess and then went to sleep.

I am proud of myself, as it's been nearly a month since I've engaged in my porn habit. Instead, I've been able to focus on doing more productive things and on how I want to treat my Goddess and and our sexualities. But I also know that a month is not a lot of time, and that it is still quite easy to fall back into old habits, spending hours viewing porn on the internet. But so far I've been good, and I intend to really try to keep it up (no pun intended). My Goddess will now be home in a week, so I want to fill this week full of chores that I can do to make the house clean an welcoming for her return, as well as fantasies about all the different ways I want to hug, kiss and pleasure her when she gets back. Upon her return, I think it will be easy for me to focus on her and be a good submissive servant. In the longer term, it may be harder, but it's a challenge that I'm up for.

At the moment I can't think of other behaviours that I would like to address in this way. I feel that my behaviour has improved over the course of the last month, and now I'm trying to focus on my Goddess's return and on how I want to focus my sexuality on her.

In submission,
SeekingP

Kink-Colored Glasses: Norman Rockwell & Writing Lines

It's quite obvious that the Written Punishments group, and the boys who are writing lines for me, have given me WP-colored glasses!

[Once you have experienced a kink, it can cause you have a tendency to look at the everyday world in a new way. I have dubbed this seeing the world through "kink-colored glasses". ;-) ]

Today, wolfmoon and I went to see the Norman Rockwell exhibit at the North Carolina Museum of Art. Included in the exhibit were tear sheets of all 323 of Rockwell's Saturday Evening Post covers. Early in his career (published October 27, 1917), he did one of a boy writing lines. It caught my eye, and, of course, I had to share it you. I wasn't able to take a photo, but I found this picture of it:

From:

http://www.best-norman-rockwell-art.com/norman-rockwell-saturday-evening-post-cover-1917-10-27-knowledge-is-power.html

Written Punishments at Work!

The above pic is Mr. August from the 2011 Porn for Women Calendar, which I just received as a tribute. With all the recent written punishments and assignments that I have been giving, I had to share this with everyone. I love the way that his tie is thrown back, and he seems to really be getting into it. ;-)

The calendar is often more silly than sexy, but it is still fun, and it definitely makes me smile. The sexiest guy, and the only one with his shirt off, is the one on the cover, which you can see below. Enjoy!

Written Punishments, Cock Control and an Excellent Punishment & Infractions Report

The report below, published with permission, is a illustration of why certain boys ask me for written punishments. It is from a new punishee, not WP2, whose better reports I have been publishing in my InHerService blog.

The first boy who approached me for written punishments (neither of these two) asked to be made to write lines and submit fines for his disrespectful acts toward women, such as cutting them off in traffic, or leering at certain parts of their anatomy. (I now call these punishments "lines and fines" because that is exactly what they are.) He wanted me to role play as a judge, representing the Court of Women, and punishing him for his misdeeds toward the better half of the human race.

Around this time I asked my boy, ed cantor, if he could see me, a loving Domme, in the role of a firm and strict "Lady Disciplinarian", the title given to me by this boy, to which he responded with a lovely piece, called simply "Disciplinarian" which some of you may remember. It reminded me, with the warmest glow, that a firm hand sometimes shows more love than a permissive smile.

As I started giving this first boy his punishments, I found that the Superior Female/"Goddess archetype" in me was really enjoying handing them down. I asked him more about the culture of written punishments, and was directed to a Yahoo Group dedicated to them. I joined and am really enjoying being a part of the group. I have learned a lot there about new and different types of written punishments: essays, copying, etc., as well as ways to make writing lines more difficult.

I also now have a WP Assistant there, johnj, who helps me with researching new assignments and potential punishees/trainees. He is great at brainstorming, gives good feedback, and if I ask him to do something, I know that it WILL be done, and promptly so.

The group itself has more of a classroom/school days focus, with weekly homework essays, students being punished for acting up in class, etc. Like the boys that I am training off-list, I do generally prefer a more adult approach. I have found that the boys who come to me off-list usually do so for one of two reasons:

- They want to be punished for activities that are not suitable to be discussed on a PG-rated list. These included excessive masturbation, leering at women, porn addiction, causing women to go out of their way to bend over so they can get a better view, fingering a female friend's unworn panties, etc.

I'm starting to combine punishments for boys like these with cock control, requiring chastity while they do their punishment work, and only potentially allowing a release, as I dictate, once their work has been completed and accepted by me. Obviously, this is a strong motivator to finish their task. At the same time, it teaches them to better control their urges and to focus on respecting women rather than on using them for their own pleasure. It is my firm belief that a man's penis is for the pleasure of the woman (or women) in his life, and that he will gain the most pleasure from it when he learns to focus on her needs and desires instead of on his own selfishness.

- They want to be punished in ways that they can't be on the list.

The biggie is the desire to send me lines so that I can tear them up. After many years of refusing offers from boys who wanted to buy me a webcam (I didn't want one because I didn't want to cam), I finally gave in for one of these punishees. It has always been my feeling that going on cam in an intimate way is a sexual service and is often very slutty. (I also wish to protect my identity for work reasons.) Therefore, as a Domme, it has always been my policy that I do not cam, but I do enjoy watching boys cam for me as long as they are respectful, focused on me, follow orders, etc. In this case, I am videotaping only my hands as I tear up the lines or essay. Therefore, it is not live, and only shows exactly what I want it to show. The "careful exhibitionist" in me does enjoy that part, and I'm contemplating doing future videos of just my feet, etc. For now, I have a couple boys who are willing to airmail me their work from the UK just so that I can tear it up!

I can also have boys wear certain items (panties, male thong, cock ring, etc.) or do their writing in certain locations, in order to remind them of the reason for their punishment and/or make them feel more submissive while doing it. These additions are not allowed for on-list assignments, however they can add significantly to the experience. Reading some of WP2's reports shows just how much:
- http://www.inherservice.com/2010/09/written-punishments-in-library.html
- http://www.inherservice.com/2010/10/caught-writing-lines-while-wearing.html


I must admit that I am finding the written punishments combined with cock control to be a huge turn-on and they are often my favorite. I'm enjoying having trainees write for other reasons as well, such as improving their health, or recreating a memory or fantasy from another time, and I'm even starting to combine off and onlist training for some boys whose training is less sexual in nature. This is because we enjoy the exhibitionism of having them report the punishments on the list and/or because it adds an element to the possible punishment (being under the list rules adds the possibility of expulsion from the list) for list members whose tasks are not completed in a timely manner. I may write more about that later.

For now, I will leave you to read the report:

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Dear Mistress Magick,

Thank you for accepting my work, it makes me happy to know that the work was up to your high standards. As you noted, the scanner itself has seen better days, and does produce some spots.

I will remember your suggestion of a thank you paragraph if I'm required to write lines to you once again.

Thank you for granting me an orgasm, it was enjoyable to give myself release on your command. You requested that I think of and report on other offences:

In terms of other porn-viewing occasions, there are so many that it's difficult to know where to begin. I have been interested in porn and kinky porn for many years, and have spent quite a lot of time viewing it. I have nothing against the production or viewing of porn per se, though I find that the way porn is produced and consumed is quite symptomatic of the subjugation and objectification of women in society. However, I often have found myself spending many hours viewing porn, in search of the one picture that really does it for me and takes me over the edge. These are hours that I'm spending on my own pleasure, rather than doing more productive things for myself or for my Goddess. The submissive in me finds the waste of hours of time looking at porn to be unacceptable.

However, one common situation does stand out to me. My partner is an early riser and often goes to bed before me. I am a late bird, so I would often not go to bed with her, but rather stay up a bit later. Often I would feel horny and end up staying up very late, viewing porn and masturbating. And I would usually feel guilty afterwards...I should have been pleasuring and hugging my Goddess, but instead I've wasted my time objectifying other women and focusing my energy on them.

The other thing that I've felt deserves to be punished is my sometimes leering behaviour on the street. I smoke (yes, I do want to quit at some point, but not right at the moment. And when I do I think I want to keep quitting and my kink separate.) so when I'm at work I go outside the building and smoke. When I do so, I often find myself pacing around and turning my head in order to have a look at the buttocks of women who walk by on the sidewalk. Now, I think it's somewhat natural to look at an attractive person who walks by. But it's another thing to do so in an obvious way...and I think I cross that line sometimes. Especially when I'm feeling horny, I will leer at the bottoms of the women who walk by. I would like to change this behaviour, and I have to some extent, but there is also something quite natural and automatic about eyeing attractive people who walk by. I feel that some discipline might do me some good, though I also struggle to find a good strategy to avoid leering. Do I stare at the ground instead? There is just something so natural about watching the women walk by, I struggle to avoid it.


As to my feelings being punished, I found the experience quite powerful. I had to muster the courage to ask for a punishment on the list. Requesting punishment is a weird thing. I didn't think I'd really enjoy writing all those lines, so requesting something that will be less than pleasant is a weird thing. But I also kink on it. One thing is kinking on the punishment and having a sort of play 'offence' to justify it. But if it is something that I really feel bad about and want to change, then it somehow goes beyond just play somehow. Because a lot of kinky play is activity that I really like...but writing lines?? But I asked...and waited for a response.

I was quite excited when I got your response. I have found that anticipation can be very stimulating, guessing at what your punishment might be. I thought of doing the lines not because I wanted to, but because I wanted to improve myself and also obey a dominant woman. So that was a happy, nervous sort of anticipation. When I got the assignment, I was still quite turned on by the thought of the punishment. I savoured the opportunity to carry out your command.

Once I began writing the lines, I found it tedious, boring and painful. It was not really fun to spend all that time writing lines and having my hand hurt, even if I am a bit of a masochist. However, I knew why I was writing them and knew that I just needed to go ahead and finish. Wearing a thong while writing them also reminded me of my submission and my desire to be a good submissive slut. In my mind I thought that this punishment might help me to avoid the offensive behaviour, which made me hopeful at the same time. And I have to say I am proud that I now haven't viewed porn since the beginning of last weekend. Not really much time to be proud of, but it is nonetheless satisfying.

All that time, I didn't masturbate. With my lover not around and knowing I didn't have permission to orgasm, I found it was actually easier than I thought to abstain from playing with myself. When she is around, I think I find her presence arousing (as it should be!) and so chastity periods can be quite teasing and frustrating. But this one has been a bit easier, perhaps because I've started to exercise on a more regular basis in the last couple of weeks. I find that does alter the patterns of my libido.

When I finally finished all the lines, I was quite happy and pleased with myself. I scanned them and converted the files (I'm a techie IT person, but it still took me a couple hours to scan and convert!) and sent them off to you. Then began another period of anticipation. But we subs must learn that sometimes we have to wait. Would you accept them? Would I get an additional punishment? Would I be granted an orgasm. Submitting to your decisions in those matters is both slightly nerve-racking and also quite erotic.

I waited in anticipation of your email and instructions. When I received your email, I was joyed to hear that I could have an orgasm. This morning, I did my 15 minutes exercise, then kneeled in the bedroom and masturbated to thoughts of you, of submitting to your punishment, of my Lovely Goddess, and of how it is to have someone else controlling my cock. I came in the shot glass. Then I tipped it back and drank it. It went down pretty quick. I really dislike the taste of my cum, I just don't enjoy it. It was quite difficult to do, but I know what my orders were and carried them out. Drinking my own seed feels quite powerful, as it really is something that I would *not* follow through with if left to my own devices. But I did it, and it feels like a very submissive act. I also feel there is a sort of justice to it, since I am 'cleaning up my own mess' instead of leaving stains on bed sheets, underwear, etc. So it's powerful, but I'd definitely say I'm not used to the taste itself...I don't think I'll ever get used to that. Now the taste of a woman, on the other hand... :)

And so that's where I am now. It's after midnight, but I still feel like I can feel a bit of the salty protein-rich taste on my tongue. And another day has past in which I have not viewed porn. And now I wonder when my next orgasm might be...since I have agreed that that is not in my control right now.

Thank you for taking the time to punish me, and for controlling my cock. It is a sometimes contradictory and strange journey, but I find it quite captivating and exciting. I guess that's sexual submission.

Thank you for reading these rambling notes I have written.

Yours truly,
SeekingP